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A Little Honesty...

I don't know what's up with me lately.
It's as though I feel like I can't do anything right. All the things I can't get done seem to be heavy on my heart and mind. Then I feel like the worst wife/mother/friend/me in the world.
Yesterday was rough. I had a class last night and afterward a friend prayed with me. That lifted it and I guess I feel a little better today. I just don't know.

Sometimes I get to this place where God is doing something in me and I know I'm in a tough spot, but I also know that it will be better. I don't know how to explain it, but it's true and it is always better.
I just need to stay open to what He is doing and I'll get there.

I think some of it is that I don't have any time to myself lately and if I am alone, then I'm working on something or whatever. Yes, I go to the gym, but that's not really alone.
My husband goes with me. Please don't take that as a negative. If it weren't for him, I probably wouldn't go as much as I do. Hearing him say he is going or wants to go, drives me to jump in as well and I love it. Though even there I feel like I let him down because I take longer than he does. He can't do some of the leg machines because of his knees. I know he has to get tired of waiting around for me. You need to know he doesn't say that, it's just how I feel... defeated everywhere I turn. That no matter which way I go, I'm letting someone down.

It's the quiet times alone. I miss them. I have ADD and in many ways, I think it can be a gift. Then there are those times like now... when there is no stillness.
I have really wanted to go to Starbucks and bring a book to spend some time alone, but then I talk myself out of it. To much to do or to much of a pain to arrange.
The reality is... there's something about being alone that is really bothering me.

I've finally bought into the reality that I am "worth it" when it comes to eating well and working out... but as far as the quiet times. I think that is where my "worth it" is really tested.


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If Life were a Musical...

even a day at the Train Station would be fun!




I found this on Facebook from a good friend of mine (Thanks Steph).
Why can't I ever be somewhere when this happens?
My luck - If I were there, I would be running late and not able to watch.




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Last Big Winter Blast... not.

Yesterday we canceled all of our plans for this morning and set up early in the week because of a "massive winter storm" that was on its way.

This weekend we had quite a few things planned:

Club 54 Hits the Ice!
4th & 5th graders were heading out for a hang-out time at an inside ice rink here.

Painting & Egg Stuffing Party
This is a continuation of last week's Spring Spruce Up.
Why not buy eggs pre-stuffed? Minor Irritation...
Not only were they open, but they were filled with junk. I realize we're not placing pieces of gold inside this year, but it has to be better than chalk candy that looks like it was made in 1972.

Encouraging Words Outreach & Training
This one wasn't ours, but Brandon was really looking forward to it. Though honestly, regardless of whether they could have driven in it, it's a good thing they canceled anyway. I believe they are outside most of the time for this and there may not be any snow... but it is coooold! Meteorologists are safe on this one.

Over the years, you'd think we'd know better than to take to heart everything that is said in the news, especially when it comes to weather. Not saying the meteorologists don't know what they are talking about, but in all reality, God controls the weather and I think He likes to remind us of that from time to time.

So what's the worst that will happen today?
We are ready for tomorrow and are still able to head over to a friend's house for dinner tonight. Sounds like an awesome day to me.
Still... I can't help but miss those beautiful big fluffy snowflakes...


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